#70

Woo, 70th post today, and next month marks one year of my little blog's existence. Pretty exciting! While I don't have a whole ton of readers, or strangers who encourage me to get out of rough spots in my life, I have learned a lot about myself through my blog, and I have come to hate that whiny little girl I was eleven months ago. I resent some of the things I said, some of the things I did, and some of the things I thought, but that's not going to change the past. In fact, maybe if the past had changed, I wouldn't be here now, talking about half the things I do, and maybe, I would still have never had pistachio ice cream.

I used to love running around in the rain. It didn't used to matter how cold it was outside, I'd still come back inside sopping wet and cold. Now, I'd rather curl under blankets and find warmth. Somewhere along the line, I wanted to stay warm. I don't know...conditioning I guess.

Tch. I don't feel like doing anything. I don't want to wake up tomorrow. I want to stay at home all day and sleep and read. I want to spend an entire day not having to worry about stuff. I'm so done with having to care so much about everything. I want a soma holiday...That'd be fun.

-Another Useless Milestone
Scarlet Bloodmoon