Now I Wear The Biggest Smile

Life is fine and dandy with Scarlet right now. Wrapping up two days of not being single anymore (eventually, I will stop counting...) and all I can say is "Damn, I am one lucky girl."

I'm not going to lie, Bella and my relationships tend to have fairly close "anniversary dates". Her anniversaries are on the 24th and mine was the 31/30/29/28 (end of the month I guess). Now, mine are the 19th and she still has the 24th. Apparently, it takes people towards the end of months to gather up the remaining amount of doubt and just ask me out.

Talking to Otter on Sunday and with Bella in the car, we finally started telling people James and I were going out.

Bella: "They're official now, by the way"
Otter is confused.
Bella: "Scarlet and James, they are official."
Otter: "Oh! Finally! Took him long enough. I asked him about it not long ago, it was like 'so what's with you and Scarlet?' He said 'we're just friends.' Jeez, took him long enough."
Me: "Like the better part of four months?" (It's true. We've been spending too much time together since January 5th for Robotics.)
Otter: "Well, it's only been really bad for the past month and a half."

It was kind of amusing, because looking back, yeah...that was when it all kind of started to seem like a relationship. That was when we started diving head first into spending EVERY day with each other. *Shrugs*

You know what's silly is now Bella says she'll feel awkward and like a third wheel around James and I. The only thing we've added to the random amounts of silliness we do is kissing...and fairly prolonged hugs. I mean, I've had to endure seven months of her talking about a boyfriend and her being with her boyfriend while I was single. Now that I have a relationship with a person who spends more time with me in the past four months of not dating than her boyfriend has in the past six months of dating her, she feels like a third wheel and needs to remind us that she's sick and tired of us being close. Every time we're being cute and silly and just leaning against each other, it's "Stop making out!" or "Stop making babies!" Okay. First off, you're the ones running off to your room, locking the door, and turning on the TV. Does that not scream "We're doing something (or rather, each other) that we're not supposed to?" We're not making out, we're not making babies (does it look like we're hurriedly undressing just to put on a show for you?) and we are not going to stop being annoying like that. Just because you're not getting "You're so cute" every other ten minutes doesn't mean you have to snap at us because I'm getting compliments.

I also hate how Bella gets so offended when James and Otter pretend to be gay for each other. "Sloppy seconds" comments are tossed around and Bella pulls this offended pout thing and tries to rope Otter to her side. Seriously, I'm laughing at the two, egging them on because it's hilarious. Bella is complaining because Otter apparently is spending too much time with his other friends. "What? I thought you loved me," she would say, sounding wounded. Another sloppy-seconds comment and she would pull a deeper pout. Rolling my eyes like a ninja, I step in and make the "I'm getting sloppy seconds too, just shush" comment and James laughs at it. He knows how much chatter goes on behind her back and how many people just want to like smother her some days. In fact, we do most of the talking and the needing to smother. She just cares way too much about having a perfect boyfriend and just needed a male enough to settle with anyone and crave to fix his every flaw.

I find it hilarious that James had to force Otter to spend time with Bella. Seriously, Otter had the choice of Guitar Hero 3 for the Wii and spending time with her. It's obviously not going to work well if someone else has to force you to pick your girlfriend over a game that you have at home. They've hit a year, three months, and a day and seriously, James and I were joking about sabotaging the relationship because it would be easier for all of us. Bella would find someone who thought like a girl and could give her all the attention she craves (and she craves more attention than a newborn) and live her happy and romantic life while James and I wouldn't need to hear about how horrible this new guy was because he will be essentially perfect. I personally think Bella is afraid of change so she won't leave Otter, but only went out with him because she was desperate for a relationship. She ended a relationship at three months because he wasn't the best for her, and now, Otter is starting to act a lot like the other one. I'm thinking one of the other reasons is that they've bonded physically to a point where it'd be awkward afterwards. It's gone past a point of return and it'd tear apart a group of people. Hey, I think we should have bets as to how long this relationship is going to last.

I was different. I apparently attract really good guys. Sure, there are some bad ones, and most the time, I know when they are bad and most the time, I know I'm not serious, but they could be. I had a really full relationship before this one and when that ended, I pulled away, was immature, and got back on the horse. This relationship...he's a nerd. He's a very well-rounded nerd that can definitely teach me a lot. Musically inclined too...I win. Sure, I sort of settle with what I get, but I'm also apathetic enough to ignore flaws...and that's a personal character flaw. I tend to ignore too much sometimes. I don't want to change them, I just want them to acknowledge me as someone more than sex or arm candy and actually give as much as they want to take. I also tend to date really close friends, people who I've gotten to know. If they pass the qualities test, they are in for the picking.

I'm not going to lie, I have (and already two days in, it's kind of sad that I can already tell) a better relationship than the one Bella has with Otter. Sure, James seems a tad clingy, but I don't mind. It hasn't been suffocating yet and it's comfortable. I couldn't care, he's musically inclined, a fantasy/sci-fi nerd, and in two of the clubs I'm in. He used to play cello and upright bass, and really, he's just...wonderful. I really think that I hit gold on this one. It's so easy to tell that James is the kind of boyfriend that Bella had wanted out of Otter. He's constantly there and it almost seems like he's reluctant to leave me.

-Patience, My Love, Is A Virtue
Scarlet Bloodmoon

Title From: Misery Business by Paramore