Colleges?

So for the past like two days, I've been watching this show called Undressed that was on MTV or something...it's like this little drama thing that looks very indie and it totally out there. It's alright...I get mad at it sometimes and refuse to watch it, but then I get bored. Eh.

Oh, so on Friday, there was this club meeting thing at conference and basically, it was seniors talking to not seniors about college applications and stuff like that. They asked where we were going to college and I said I was going to ASU because I didn't want to be far from my parents. I lied. I'm going to ASU because really, I don't want to leave him. I'm telling myself that I don't want to deal with out-of-state tuition and that I'm not good enough to get a full ride anywhere, but if I had really worked hard enough, even now, I could. I don't have that ambition and I don't want to leave behind this window of happiness I have. Maybe I'll end up regretting this, but there is nothing wrong with getting an in-state education before going somewhere that counts. I'm not staying here because I'll miss my family, and I'm not really staying here because I have no other option. I'm staying here because I want to and because it's easier here. At least I'm not depending on my parents to pay my way through the world. Ugh. I can't stand people from old money or people who take everything for granted. Graduation will rock your world, and if not at graduation, your life will be fucked when you realize no one can help you.

-According To Plan