These Are The Puppets, Here Are Their Strings

(As I feel awkward using any names without having asked permission...)

I guess it's a bit too late to talk about my ex...In fact, I've really stopped seeing him as an ex boyfriend. Well, as a female teenager and with the large amounts of moral dilemmas drifting about, I'm starting this blog to somehow quietly and anonymously detail my scandalous life. Let's start with the playbill, shall we?

The "Cakes"

One of my friends used a clever analogy comparing his girlfriend and fangirls to cakes. Building upon his analogy, I shared with him the difference between chocolate cakes and vanilla cakes. Chocolate cakes are the girls (in his case...my case, they are guys) who have little prospects emotionally and thus are for more physical relationships and propositions. Vanilla cakes are the people you could take home to Mom.

My Chocolate Cakes:
"Greed" - I met this character at a Comic Convention late January this year. I appeared dressed in fairly revealing clothing and hardcore flirted with any guy that had the attention span to flirt back, and thus, met Greed. On the final night of the convention, we got into heavy petting, so making out and stuffs, to a point where one of my friends is convinced I had sex with him. Apparently, however far we went was the furthest he'd ever gone, which is so very sad.

"Captain" - Though I would never actually go to him for chocolate, he's joked about booty-calling me. Originally a friend of a friend, he was in one of my classes last year and shared with me that out of me and two other female friends, I'd be one of the more interesting in bed (based on our personalities and his male intuition). He's currently dating a really good friend of mine and the relationship seems so fragile. I play only for the sake of playing with guys.

"Snake" - (I have no idea how that name fits him...) I dated this guy for six days before I decided that my then-not-ex was a better choice and just as interested in me as I was in him. From the middle of January, he's been expressing an interest in playing. Recently, I told him I was losing respect in him because he's too playful. He hinted at a relationship, saying that if he had the nerves and gut (yeah, he meant balls) to ask me out, he would.

"Fluffy" - This kid is so out of his league...I don't know why I started playing with him, but his attention made me want to keep him as a feel-good hit. I want nothing to do with him, and I'm starting to feel really bad that I've dragged him into my playing (as he's so innocent it's not even funny). I've convinced him that we don't want a relationship, so I'll just let it die.

Marble Cakes:
"Silver" - I think it's because I've kind of had a crush on him since I was a freshman, but I realize fully that this kid is trouble, yet I want to be able to see some good in him and believe that he is relationship material. We play constantly, but it's never gotten to really physical playing. Apparently, plans are in the making and he wants to get me drunk off my ass after I'm not jailbait anymore. (Edit 3/16/08: Codenamed Silver because that is the codename for each and every one of my love interests since 9th grade.)

"Damian" - This kid I'm just physically attracted to (he is fricken ripped!) and I feel I can teach him more than he could teach me (though I'm probably lying). He's in my physics and programming classes and his dad is a programmer, so I can yet mold him into the nerd I want, but neh. I'm lazy and I really don't want to.

Vanilla Cakes:
"James" - This kid I really have to be gentle with. He has trust and commitment issues, and the only thing that I can really do with this kid is enjoy a pure emotional relationship - if he'd let me. He's in both AcDec with me and Robotics, meaning I spend way too much time with this kid. He's entertaining, too much of a nerd not to keep me amused. I guess if I'm ever ready to settle for a mature relationship, if he's still there, I'd go for him.

"Tristan" - He was in my Creative Writing class last semester and is a sophomore. He's cute and slightly soft spoken. He has the prettiest cursive I've ever seen and definitely a nerd. I've had a friend dub herself my mother just to approve of him. If only I could get to talk to him a bit more...but then I might just scare him away...

"Lucien" - This is a kid that I've liked on and off since seventh grade...well the only reason I stopped crushing was because he was dating this really destructive girl and I didn't want to hurt myself watching him fall. They broke up and he was really hurt. I really wanted to step in and help, but being a really anti-social little girl at the time, I just sat back and watched as he drifted away. I spent freshman year with his brother entertaining everyone, and I finally convinced myself that I was jealous of him for his family closeness. If I actually had the chance, he'd be someone I'd really take care of.

"Napoleon" - This kid will apparently make me more cryptic and cruel than I am now. He's definitely not as interested in me as I am in him, seeing as he has the curse of liking girls in relationships...We jokingly planned to start a satellite project that will control parameters that will force him into world domination. I think I asked for an island or small country in his reign. I've joked about his future wife being meek and nothing but a pretty face allowed a certain budget to entertain herself with each month. He's a very intelligent peer and is definitely rounded enough to be a perfect Renaissance Man.

"Dante" - I guess I started liking this person after one of my friends did. She moved on because he was a jerk, but I found him more and more interesting. He was in the marching band, plays the piano...he was just fun. I'm not really going to die if I don't end up with him, but I feel like he's more of an emotional relationship than a physical one...he just doesn't matter as much to me.

My Gilbert Fanclub:
Most recently, my Gilbert Fanclub condensed to two guys, but it started with four guys who I met at an AcDec competition and avidly flirted with all of them. Out of the four, one of them never got to the level of competition the other three and I did, so I haven't heard from him in a long time. One of the three just kind of stopped after awhile, as the other two avidly stole and kept my attention. My best friend has told me that one of the fanboys would really complement me well, making me wish I had asked for his number or at least stole his phone and called mine with it. Damn! I miss my fanboys! I guess I shall see them next November...